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# Numbers
- URL: https://dianaludwick.com/numbers/
- Published: 2026-04-17T18:17:00.000Z
- Updated: 2026-10-24T20:09:32.000Z
- Description: “Numbers,” a rant against The Bad Men of the world who harm women, and pushback to The Good Men of the world who debate the wrong angles of these terrible metrics. Written April 17, poem 107 in a series of 365 poems written by Diana Ludwick in 2026. Photo art, "62000000," by Diana Ludwick (c) 2026.
- Author: Diana Ludwick
- Tags: 2026 Poetry Challenge, Poems, Rants, 62 Million, 62 Million Hits, Abuse, Accountability, April, CNN, Culture, Drugged, Hits, Men, Metrics, numbers, Rage, Rape, Somber, Website, Women, #Migrated-1792872215677, #wp, #wp-post, #Import 2026-10-24 20:03

This week   
a very large number  
is making the rounds  
through my social algos.  
  
62,000,000.  
62 million.  
  
Per CNN, there were:  
62 million.  
62 million hits.  
  
62 million hits in a month.  
Hits to one specific website.  
  
A site referred to as:   
‘Rape Academy.’  
  
Before you start —  
Please, just don’t.  
  
I am, truly,  
technologically   
and even mathematically  
aware enough.   
  
I already know   
— I really do —   
that this   
troublesome tally  
can include  
repeat visitors  
and bots   
scraping the ’net  
and other   
metric noise.  
  
And that is relevant,   
how?  
Is that the point,   
here?  
A peer review of metrics?  
  
Does it matter  
if the webpage hit count  
represents:  
62 million men  
Or 620,000  
Or 62,000  
Or 620?  
Or 62?  
Or Six men?  
  
There exists,  
in 2026,  
a website.  
Run by men.  
  
One with   
the sole purpose  
of showing other men  
how to drug and rape   
their own wives.  
  
A place out there  
on the World Wide Web  
where criminals   
can exchange   
stories of their successes.   
  
A safe space to vent   
their frustrations, too,   
when a dosed evening tea  
proves not strong enough  
to fully knock out their victim.  
  
Drugged women  
Raped women  
Abused women  
Harmed women  
Underestimated women  
Discarded women  
Are out there.  
In unknown numbers.  
  
These women, us  
we are at risk, in danger  
at all times of our lives.  
In part because of this site.  
  
And these men   
the ones behind   
the convenient masks  
of civility, of wedlock  
— who lurk on the webs   
and in the beds —  
are at large  
and largely unhindered.  
  
Because of Society.  
Our world's focus   
— Men's focus —  
has been mistargeted on:  
metrics and minimizing  
denial and deflecting.  
And on Not All Men-ing  
and I'm a Good Man-ing  
and What Can I Even Do?-ing.  
  
We will likely never have   
a pat scientific answer   
to the number of women  
caught in this particular   
sunken place created by,   
yes, Men.  
  
This is not about numbers.  
This is about hiding   
behind figures.  
Arguing about data quality?  
Not here, my bud.   
Save that level of  
measurement skepticism  
for the office, for the lab,   
for the scientific journals.  
  
If we’re focused   
on numbers  
Then we’re   
missing the humans.  
  
And we,   
the Women   
with our eyes open   
and our hearts aching,   
we feel it.  
  
And I, for one,  
care and roil and rage.  
I scream for justice  
on behalf of the:  
Six women  
or the 62  
or the 620  
or the 62,000  
or the 620,000 women  
who have been betrayed,  
failed, let down, forgotten.  
  
I, and so many women with me,   
share the horror of the fates of:  
Our Sisters  
Our Mothers   
Our Neighbors  
Our Church Ladies  
Our Bosses  
Our Daughters  
Our Teachers  
Our Grandmas  
who have been,   
unknowingly in most cases,  
trespassed against so deeply.  
  
Whether it’s one  
or a million   
Perpetrators.  
  
Whether it’s one  
or a million  
Victims.  
  
For me,   
where is the inflection point,   
the point of no return?  
It's any integer — any whole number  
of humans involved   
in unholy crimes   
greater than zero.  
That is the only tally  
that matters.